Thursday, November 26, 2009


Okay, so loneliness is good. and it's good to admit one is lonely. But if that is recognized, I have learned to seek out where this feeling comes from. I do believe there is a right to feel such a thing but I also think it is a feeling that should be examined. If we have eyes that see and can see our desires, what a sweet thing that the Lord would show us exactly where is it that He can heal us. I wonder sometimes if any person will really have the patience to get to know my heart truly, or if I will have the oppertunity to get to know someone's heart so closely and genuinely. To simply truly know someone and to mirror the way God has unconditionally loved me. It's good to be blind and to not make plans in my heart that God has already set out Himself. I gladly entrust myself to His mighty hands. This is the kind of loneliness I believe is the kind God uses to check us and remind us that He is the ultimate Comforter and that there is fullness of joy in HIS presence.

John 15:14-16:
"You are my friends, if you do whatever I command you. Henceforth I call you not servants (slaves); for the servant knows not what his lord does: but I have called you FRIENDS; for all things that I have heard from my Father, I have made known to you. You have not chosen me, but I have chosen you."

God chose us completely and so He wants EVERY part of us. He is not satisfied with just having a little bit of our heart. Not content with sharing a little bit of my life with me. He has no limits on His time with me. He wants all of us, He wants to know, listen, speak, celebrate, walk, comfort, share Himself with ALL of us. What an incredible thing that the God of the universe isn't satisfied with just part of me, THANK YOU LORD!
In return, I seek ALL of Him. I will not be satisfied with just part of Him, I will run fully after everything You are. I will not be content with giving You a little bit of my life, a little bit of my heart, but I will give it all to You because you love me enough to want it and die for it. I want to know ALL of You.

With these thoughts, I would just say that if you are feeling lonely, to seek out what it is you are lonely for. Because the Lord loves and wants ALL of you so lets run after all of Him and let that satisfy us fully. This is the prayer of my heart.

Monday, November 16, 2009

A mysterious simplicity.

This is simple, but I know sometimes what I need is simplicity. To be still and know that He is LORD. To have faith like a child is a command of simplicity. How then, is this impossible to grasp His love for me in my human knowledge? It is. Praise the LORD it is.
I am in awe of His wholeness in a broken people. Not in the slightest deserving but in everything seen through the eyes of a perfect love. I did not know how dead i really was before Jesus Christ gave me a way to live. Now I can live in a grace that covers more than I am even aware of. To be able to approach the throne of the holy God in confidence, I will never understand. Praisepraisepraise from the overflow of my heart.
"He committed no sin, neither was deceit found in his mouth.
23 When he was reviled, he did not revile in return; when he suffered, he did not threaten, but continued entrusting himself to him who judges justly. 24 He himself bore our sins in his body on the tree, that we might die to sin and live to righteousness. By his wounds you have been healed. 25 For you were straying like sheep, but have now returned to the Shepherd and Overseer of your souls."